What to say?

Were to begin? Well, I recently dyed my hair, to a now deep red color. I LOVED it. Then- I went to school. I should have known better then to be excited about something. The whole day i had to put up with "Hey Carrot top" and "who called the circus?" Ugh. Fucking stupid of me. People are constantly telling me to have confidence in myself and not to be so damn insecure. But its like, how the fuck am i going to be totally fine with who i am, when i try i just get laughed at? Honestly. Middle school has to be the WORST thing since spiders. All it is is about 8 hours of laughter and ridicule. People are SHOCKED by the fact teen suicide rates have gone up? Ha! Im surprised they aren't worse. True, my life is alright compared to others, but still i cant help but get so down sometimes i wonder if its worth it. I'm constantly daydreaming of a new life. But, in order for a new life, there must be death. and that my friends, scares the fucking shit out of me. So i rather not talk about it. Chances are i will later though. So stay tuned. As for now? I will just manage day by day, taking in the comments, realizing i wont be shit, and being lied to. Isn't life great?